Keep your head up pal. I've been right where you are. Lay off the substances, ditch old friends, you know the gig. Stop telling your story man. Go toward the pain, it's the breadcrumbs on the trail, the yarn leading out of the labrynth. All the reading/info in the world will do no good if you don't put it into action. Thinking is the problem, not the solution. Life is about action. I know you have beauty at your core, and so do you. It's time to find it friend. That's what life is saying. Only you know how to do that. But start. Right now. Much love brother. It's not an easy road. I wish you the best of luck, and feel free to message me whenever you need.

Jesus was a dirty homeless peace activist!